Resham Jaisi Hai Raahen

Moments-Yes those were moments.1997,I was in 9th class.Was growing up and teen age was at its peak..I mean those mushy feelings about your infatuations,wanting to do something in life,cricket(any average Indian guy has a fascination for it-come on!) and evening meet-outs at Kalyani Chowk was so common.Though Muzaffarpur is a small town but its markets are hip and very fashionable and that's why George Fernandes named it Mini Bombay way back in 70s(heard it from seniors) and Kalyani chowk is its heart.

Going back to 1997,it was December when promos of a movie called-Ek Tha Dil Ek Thi Dhadkan, which was supposed to be debut movie for Isha Koppikar and Indra Kumar(my filmy GK has always been strong) started doing the rounds on satellite TV.

My friends and I were so excited about going to class 10th which was to happen in March as we had aspirations and certain excitement of calling ourselves students of 'matric'(small town sensibility,you see).Well, the movie had a song 'Resham Jaisi hain Raahen'.It had caught my imagination and I bought the cassette as a result.Must mention that it was musician Anand Raj Anand's first film and if my memory serves right the lyrics were of Javed Akhtar.I think this movie never got released.

Beautiful melody and words,and I had this strange habit of making my friends sit with me and listen to the songs which I liked.They must have hated it,but I was forceful:-).And some of them,who lived near home had to submit to my forceful ways more than any other friends.The song also represented all those feelings; I name them again-infatuations,excitement etc..

But more than anything else,it has a melody which I could never forget.

Life passed on and we got on with our aspirations and destiny.That cassette must be in any almirah(closet). I missed that song and tried to find out everywhere but with little success.

One of those friends met me after long and we hummed that song only remembering those old days of teen years.

"Resham jaisi hai raahen,kholen hain baahen yeh waadian,

mausam saare hai apne,rangeen sapne hain meherbaan.."

The middle lines used to just touch the chord of strings of "mann hi mann mein pyar"(infatuation/attraction/first love/teen love/whatever) :-)..It was as follows-

"awaaz jaise koi gunji hai,mere liye duniya mein tu hi hai,

kal hum na honge ye baharein phir bhi ayengi..

shayad hamari ye kahani dohrayengi,koi to hamare dhund lengi ye nishan"

(Now you see how much I liked the song that I remember it till date and I wonder many of you remember the song at all )..

So,my search of that song continued and I just could not find it.

And they say piracy is bad,I also think so sometimes('sometimes' is obvious due to prices which are just out of budget/consideration/habit:-)),but I know piracy helps.I visited a popular website ,famous for downloading hindi songs, today and was trying to listen to some songs. If I say listen, I mean it as my laptop is with a Quicktime plugin which doesn't download and directly plays the song.Random wandering made me bump into the page where I saw a label-'Ek tha Dil Ek thi Dhadkan" and my eyes lit up just thinking of those great times.And now you know what must have followed.

I listened to the song and nostalgia had gripped me,resulting in this note..

Thanks for a retro walk down to Resham jaisi raahen (silken path)-those wonderful years!

-Life goes on and the memories become our companions..

The voice within-Antardhwani

I write sometimes for myself but now I think of sharing it with you.

Some days back,i was on way to office in metro.It takes around one hour to reach my 'destination' and as a result I use the traveling time by listening to the music thru my samsung phone.I was listening to an FM station and in process I heard a very good advertisement of home-loans:-),,so well developed for its target audience and was, as a result-touchy.I like thinking,so it made me glue to the catchword which was 'khwab'..and suddenly something in my mind made me write this---well, I structured it in my mind and wrote in my diary after reaching office-

Kuch Khwab awaaz dete hain,
'Bheer mein kyun chhor gaye ?'

Kuch khwab satate rahte hain,
' Mujhe to nahi bhul gaye?'

Kuch khwab neend se bhi jaga dete hain,
' Kahin hum jyada toh nahi so gaye ?'

Kuch khwab mar jaate hain,ye kah ke
' Humey kyun andekha kar gaye ?'

Bas ek aise khwab mere ko
aaj dukhi hote dekha,
aur aisi usne awaaz lagayi-
' Kyun Janab? kya aap "aap" nahi rahe ?'
-

Well, there are a few dreams which we forget..the pressing need of time and priorities somehow take its toll and ---this verse was written in the wake of some forgotten dreams...

Where are the 'letters'?

Well..my life has changed dramatically in last one and half month.

I had thought of writing short stories and observations,but life took a unfortunate turn(which I should write later,as I am in no mood and need to be introspective best to write that).

I was going thru waves of emotions and thoughts and suddenly got a message from chat-friend(which I used to do for interacting with people from different walks of life and sharing knowledge and in process find a friend if such things are possible).Anyways,the message was for inquiring my 'haal-chaal'(my status and well being).I found it very difficult to answer it plainly as I have turned very serious about life and trying to cope-up with uncertainties and puzzles life keeps throwing to you.But I made an honest attempt to state the emotion in chat box.In old days,people used to write letters and we used to wait for days and months for those little bundles of life,emotion and love and these days we still write mails but with sea-change,we sms but avoid calls and chat and make friends but chicken out when we need to be counted out as friends(these are my views,please no offense intended)..I mean we are so well connected but still we are so far and disconnected.I will not dwell upon the reasons but I do believe in being in sync and being connected,,but that's me!!


Carrying on with inquiring of my state,I am posting here pieces of my honest reply which somehow states how it is,when...

aapka msg dekha..lekin online kam hota hun..mann nahi karta

rahi yaad karne ki baat..to apko sirf chat pe hi mila hun

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rahi mere mann ki baat..to mann mein sau baatein hai

aur meri baaton ka kinara nahi

sochta hu ki kisi se baith kar baaten karun..

lekin koi apna nahi milta...sab ki apni zindagi hai-aur main nahi chahta ki meri wajah se kisi ka samay jaye..

yun to bahut log kahne ko apne hain..lekin...

sab mujhse samajhdari hi expect karte hain

sab kuch ka solution dhundne wala

(1:52 PM)-----

chat par sirf baatein ho sakti hain...

mann ki baat mushkil hai

kyuki aapko pata nahi hota ki samne wala kya soch raha hai

kya likh raha hai aur kya hav bhav hain???

tab bhi thoda bahut likhne ki koshish ki hai...

khair duniya thodi badal chuki hai
aur sab log apni apni zindagi mein uljhe huye hain-kuch jaan bhuj kar aur kuch wakt ki meherbani ke karan...

main bhi kaam mein apne ko vyast rakhta hun,aur bache huye wakt mein kuch yaadein,kuch soch aur apne aap ke sath guzarta hun..
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aajkal kam baatein karan ka mann karta hai...ya yun kahiye ki din bhar apne clients ke sath baat karta hun...apni baat karne ka na mann karta hai aur na samay-aur rahi baat mann ki sau baaton ka...toh mann ka kya hai?bas thodi bahut guzar jati hai aur usi se hum guzaar lete hain..

umeed karta hun,maine dimag mein dard nahi diya...-----------------

I remember,we used to write letters like that only,atleast i have seen many such letters,and may be written one or two...The letters have left us!! haven't they?

--Remember,when going gets tough,the tough get going!!